This Is Not a 'Feel Sorry for Me' Post. But My Body Is at War With Me.
Published: February 24, 2026 - 5 min read
11 Days of Silence
I can't believe it. It's been 11 days since I wrote my last blog post. I don't think I've ever stayed this long without writing one.
Now obviously, I have been writing every day. LinkedIn posts, LinkedIn comments, prompts to build applications, client work, and even my first product, LinkedPulse. But this, writing blog posts on here for you to read, is something I have dearly missed.
So why the silence? Three things happened at once: client work picked up, I poured my writing energy into LinkedIn and LinkedPulse, and the third reason... well, the third reason is the one that never leaves.
My body has been fighting me.
IBS, remember?
The Memories That Haunt Me
This one is not going to be a long post. But it's an honest one.
For the past 11 days, I have been thinking back to the past. To moments where I lived normally and didn't have to think about food. When I would wake up and walk to the fridge and eat whatever I wanted. When I would meal prep for weeks in advance because I could always be sure my body would accept the meal.
I didn't have to think about waking up one day and my body rejecting the food all of a sudden. I didn't have to sleep and then wake up in the middle of the night to excruciating pain in my stomach. I could tell when I was hungry versus when I wasn't. Now the pain blurs everything and it's a lot harder.
I didn't have to worry about food at all.
Now I live in a daily hell.
The Fight That Never Stops
My body fights me every day, but I fight back. And I will keep fighting back.
I will also keep recognizing the benefits of this ailment and how it forces me to slow down at times, to spend moments in silence. Because as I have said before, when the pain gets too bad, that is all I can do. It has also forced me to get creative about ways I can get work done without being in front of the computer, and this is something I think about more and more these days.
Let Me Be Clear
Now, I need to make this clear because I don't want you to see this as a "feel sorry for me" blog post.
Sometimes I wish the pain would just go away. I wish my health would come back and I'd be normal again. But here is something I have been thinking about.
I think the pain stays because I am meant to make this work despite the pain. I am meant to succeed despite the pain. I am meant to show up despite the pain. I am meant to figure things out, achieve all my heart's desires, fulfill everything that I feel called to fulfill despite the pain.
Yes, I have to get creative about it. But honestly?
Challenge accepted, I guess.
Why This Matters Beyond Me
Ultimately, this is how my story may one day be an inspiration. Because consider this: You, yes you reading this post, you probably go through things as well. Things that fight you and try every day to steal away from your ability to show up as your highest self. Things that no one can ever fully understand but you. These things could be health related, family related, tied to your relationship with your partner or your friends, tied to global events even. Yet you are expected to keep showing up.
Whatever this may be, you have tried explaining it to others but no one understands how much it affects you, except you. I feel that.
You are probably scared that your friends, family, or loved ones might be tired of hearing the same thing over and over again, so you just keep quiet. Or you speak, but you always have this at the back of your mind when you do and it terrifies you. I deeply understand you.
Or maybe you know your family cares, and cares so deeply about you, and you can tell them, you can talk to them. But this thing that affects you every day, it's not pretty. So you pretend to be fine because you don't want to worry the ones that love you so much. I really, really get this.
Let's Fight
This is not an "I wish the world was easier" post. The world is hard, things are hard, and we are all going through things.
But I hope you keep fighting. I hope you keep showing up. Be the person that makes it work even when everything seems to be working against you. That is who I am trying to be. So let's be that together.
Let's fight. Let's never stop fighting.
That our stories may one day inspire people.
As always, thanks for reading!